What Am I Afraid Of?

Hello everyone!

It is so great to be back! And this is such a perfect prompt from my 30 Day Blogging Challenge, because it is the only way I can explain why I have been gone for 2 whole months!

I don't really want to talk about what I am afraid of:

1) It is just a SUPER personal subject.

2) I don't know WHICH fear to write about.

So I have been procrastinating writing this post. And that honestly is the reason I have been gone. I have too many fears to count!

When I hear people doing something that sounds scary to me (deadlines, promotions, first dates, submitting big assignments, starting a company, speaking to an audience, to name a few), I am genuinely surprised when their answer to my question "Are you scared/nervous/freaking out?" is a definite "No. Not really."

Are you kidding me?!?!

Here I am, freaking out for you, and you don't even care about the situation, at least not really. 😒

It is so bad, that I can be watching a TED Talk and feeling nervous for the person speaking, because I am imagining myself in their shoes. American Idol or The Voice are not my favorite shows for a reason. And I even feel anxiety for random strangers who's cards aren't working when they check out at Walmart.

It's a problem.

Recently, I finally listened to my husband's suggestion to watch a TED talk a day (despite me feeling scared for the speaker). This is a great suggestion for anyone scared of just doing SOMETHING! I have learned a lot about overcoming fears by just fighting them, one tiny bit at a time.

So...what am I afraid of?

I am afraid of being vulnerable to others, in fear of getting hurt. I am afraid of my fears and doubts holding me back from becoming something infinitely better. I am afraid of never leaving my comfort zone, but at the same time being pushed out of it. I am afraid of never changing, because deep down, I am afraid I don't really want to.

There, now you know more than you probably ever wanted to know about me, haha.

Through this prompt, I have been able to take a step in the right direction to recovery. I have lots of friends who say "I have anxiety", and I always thought I could count myself lucky I had no idea what they were going through. Not anymore. I have an anxiety problem, too. But I think most of us all do, to some degree.

I don't know how to overcome it, but I think that just accepting it, and working hard to not let it run my life, is exactly what I need to do to learn to live without it.

And there you have it. My thoughts on my fears. It was actually therapeutic to write about it. I am even writing this post in my journal, because it is a very real part of me. Everyone should do it!

Just because I love quotes, I rounded up some of my favorite quotes about fear, just for you. 😊

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What are you afraid of? Do you see any of your fears in mine?